Being someone who has been through a lot in life even though I am still at quite a young age, I have many beliefs about life, people, and society. Some are only personal ones and some are beliefs that I share with many other people. I probably have enough to start a religion lol but I don’t really feel like doing something like that.
Starting off one of the main things that I believe and try to promote is that everyone has a good side to them. I know people do bad things and don’t seem to regret it but I think that deep down inside they feel bad. People in my life never were all that friendly and nice but I see those same people get upset about things and show emotions that would lead me to believe that they do care about some things in life and that they aren’t bad people. I’ve seen people who often seem bitter and angry cry after losing a friend. These are people who I don’t normally get along with but at that particular moment I walked over to them put my arm around their shoulder and comforted them. I was also quite shaken at the time and so they put their arm around my shoulder as well. This is the kind of thing that shows me that people may not act the way they feel sometimes. Sure a week later that person and I didn’t talk or anything but at that moment we both were getting along and helping each other get through a tough time.
I believe that when people die, it was planned out to happen that way. It’s never fun to lose someone but it is for a reason and they always end up in a better place. I am always going to miss the people who I lose in my life but it always cheers me up to know that some day we will meet again and we will get to have a party and look back at our lives and ask each other questions about why we did certain things or why we let stuff get to us. It will be a fun and happy time for reunion and it will be a great moment in our personal history. A man I met once told me that being born is like death and that dying is like being reborn into the glorious afterlife. I like that interpretation very much. I was only like 10 when he said that and I still remember it today. I agree with him too. When you are born into this crazy messed up world it is almost like dying. The stress and chaos of living here is not fun at all. But when you die, you are born into a better place. A place of no worries, a place that is everlasting and full of happiness and joy, and a place where there is no war and destruction and hatred, where everyone gets along and lives happy lives. Life is like a game. It’s like a game of choices. You have to decide what choice to make and you don’t always know what the choice will lead to. You in essence are playing a game. You can lose this game at any moment. You want to pay attention to it because you only get to play once. But once you lose the game you realize that losing is winning. Yes, when you die, you go to a better place. When you lose, die, you will realize that you didn’t lose anything but indeed, you have ended up in an awesome place and that anyone who you “lost” will be there with you when his or her game is done. Enough talk about games. The bottom line is no one who is “alive” really knows the truth about death because none of us has experienced that but one can assume that based on the beliefs you have whether they are religious or non religious, that the afterlife is going to be good. Maybe that isn’t your opinion but it sure as hell is mine. I don’t care when I die either. My time will come…it will be my time to go. There will be a reason behind it. Maybe I’ll do something stupid and it will set an example. That wouldn’t be good. Maybe I’ll be suffering from something and my body won’t be able to take it anymore. Natural causes are always good. Maybe someone will kill me. If it were an accident they sure would feel bad but if they murder me I probably deserved it. Killing in cold blood is only done by people who lose their mind and develop a psychological disorder. That’s not their fault. They are sick in the head. They have no idea what they’re doing. I feel bad for people who develop the desire to kill another human being. That isn’t a normal thought and I think that in no way is that a thought that a normal human in the right state of mind could ever have. So if I come across a person like that, it isn’t going to be a happy time for me.
I believe in karma…you do bad things, bad things happen to you. If your nice to people, you find nice people who will talk with you for 4 hours about whatever is on your mind. Like if someone does something stupid to me, I go “wow that kids got it coming to him. He’s a jerk and someone’s gunna do that to him because karma always gets you back.” I saw a good example of karma on the bus the other day. Some kid was being mean to everyone. He was throwing stuff at people. I told him: “dude karma is gunna get you back and when it does I’m going to laugh.” So we are sitting there and he throws a half a bagel at someone. 10 minutes goes by…nothing. Then all of a sudden the kid he threw it at came up with the same bagel all chewed up and threw it in his face. That kid I also knew would get something back for that and I told him. But right as this all played out, the first kid who started everything got blamed for the bagel on the floor and had to pick it up and throw it away. The other kid was spoken to and kind of got in trouble but I looked at my friend and his jaw dropped because he knew I had just said that karma would get them back and it did. It’s very interesting. You see, sometimes you don’t think karma exists but then you realize it does when something like that happens. Just because you don’t see them when karma gets them back it doesn’t mean that it didn’t. That’s why I always try to be nice to people because then nice things should happen to me in return.
Another thing I believe is that bad things happen and u have to deal with it. You shouldn’t complain about things. Just deal with it. Don’t dwell on things. If your boyfriend or girlfriend dumps you, find a new one because it obviously didn’t work out. I swear I hate it when people end relationships and talk about it for months. Or when people won’t date you because their last relationship didn’t work and they don’t want to get hurt again. It’s the biggest dating bullcrap ever. People need to forget about the bad things in their past. They need to remember the good ole days of their life which I briefly mentioned before. Remembering bad things that happened in your life is something you shouldn’t try to do. It will make you upset and ruin your attitude.
Then there’s the age rule of relationships. As if anyone should have to care. Age doesn’t matter in a relationship. It’s about loving the person and wanting a relationship with them. If I ever was in a situation where I had to choose between dating a girl 3 years older or younger than me who loved me and I loved back, a girl my age who loved me and I thought of more as a friend, and a girl my age who was hot and liked me because I was hot, I would choose the one who is 3 years younger or older because of the love connection between us. Relationships shouldn’t be about looks. Those relationships have no meaning. If you base relationships on looks you are a slut. Yes looks help, but if you date someone who is a total jerk but is good looking, you are stupid. Age should never affect a relationship. If both people are happy, that’s what counts. I know right off the top of my head like 6 relationships where there is a large difference in age. They are all in love. I mean seriously, my grandparents are the nicest people you will ever meet and they are 6 years apart. They have been happily married for over 50 years. I bet people said stuff about their age difference when they were younger but you know what they didn’t care. They shouldn’t have had to care. There’s nothing wrong with that. They love each other and that my friend is what relationships should be based on.
Now lets talk about all those “emo” kids. Emo: it’s short for emotional. I can see why they get a bad reputation with some folks. I think that being emo is a temporary cure for being lost and depressed and feeling down about yourself because of something that you have no control over and I feel bad for those people because they are trapped within their problem and cant find their way out. Many find comfort in hurting themselves. They say it feels good when the razor slides over their skin. That is how much emotional pain they feel inside of themselves. So much pain that it takes physical pain to get rid of the emotional pain. These people also tend to be suicidal. The fact that they don’t know what to do kills them from the inside out. Emo kids tend to listen to “emo music.” The music is really depressing and sad. There’s this song called “Mad World” by Gary Jules that I’m sure many depressed kids listen to. It was a line that says: “I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad the dreams of which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had.” I don’t know about you but that just crushes my soul. It rips it out and crushes it. I’m not really depressed but that song being heard by someone who is depressed…it just seems like they would be way more depressed after hearing it. It’s so sad and if you think about the lyrics you start to ask yourself about death and if it truly would be better to die than to live. It makes you ask questions such as the ones I asked when talking about life and death in this “book”. That song makes me want to cry sometimes. Stereotypes and our brainwashed society say that because I’m a guy, I’m not supposed to cry, so I don’t. In fact I only cry like once or twice a year. That’s beside the point. These kids are everyday kids. Yes, they may dress different or act different at times or do things that we see as wrong or maybe even weird. Personally, I think that they are just trying to find their true inner self and dressing the way they do is to express themselves. The cutting is to relieve the pain that they feel inside. It’s a temporary fix for the pain and suffering that they have gone through in their life. Like I said, they are trapped and lost and cannot seem to find a way out. I myself was starting to fall into the dark trap of depression. I was lucky and quickly found a way out and didn’t get to the stages of anything other than feeling down all the time. Now I’m fine and I think everything is gonna be alright. I mean I feel so bad for those kids. It is very hard to help them and often the ones I know will come to me for advice and I try my best to help them and I always tell them how much I care about them because I know they don’t hear it very often. Most don’t feel loved and it’s so sad to think that they don’t feel loved when so many people care about them. I have talked to so many friends of mine when they are in the state of mind that no one likes them. Usually they feel better after talking with me. I’m always happy when I make a friend in need feel better about their life. Now knowing the pain of losing one friend I would hate to lose another. I constantly let people I care about know how much they mean to me. The emo kids will be emo but with the right people and the right attitude they will rebound and eventually look back and laugh because they will see how blind they were to what was going on. They will find a way out of the puzzle of depression. I do have to add that some ways out are better than others and some are faster and a small percentage will choose the wrong way out and it will be a terrible time but as for the others they will be back with their friends. They will be enjoying life and living it to the fullest.
When it comes to people being fat, if u have control over it it’s your own fault and you’re dumb. But, if you can’t help it you can’t help it. People who overeat kill themselves and that is not right. If you are a fat person and I see you eating fast food or candy or some other fattening thing, I will be disappointed. I think that McDonalds should be shut down. So should every other fast food place unless they make healthier food. I worked at Wendy’s but I saw some lady who must have weighed 300+ pounds come through drive-thru and she order 4 double cheeseburger melts. Now being an employee I know that those are the most fattening most disgusting things you could eat if you weigh 300 pounds. They each have 780 calories and that girl I felt so bad for her. Maybe she eats too much fast food or maybe she’s just from a fat family. But if it’s from overeating I think that it’s terrible that people are allowed to eat that junk and secondly I think it’s terrible that people do eat it. Healthy food should not cost twice as much as non-healthy food. It’s a disgrace. The majority of people I see who are overweight are women. And to narrow that down it’s usually single moms who can barely support themselves and usually a child or two. You feel bad for people like that. They can’t afford to eat healthy. A salad at my work is 4 times as much as a cheeseburger. It’s terrible. Personally I like salad but I almost never eat them at work because it costs too much. The only praise I can give the government on food regulations is school food. Our school has many healthy lunch choices and I think it’s good to encourage young people to eat healthy. I’m glad that milk and salad and fresh fruit and whatnot are offered with your meal everyday. You won’t see kids getting fat eating school food. They should take that example and apply it to the adult world. People would live longer and be healthier. But who am I kidding. That will never happen. The first person to suggest that in Washington DC would be mocked. They would laugh. It won’t happen. There are rights to the people. Freedom of choice being one of them and there are so many lawyers to go against taking away fast food. All I can say is that if you are fat, you need to exercise and eat right and you should do fine and if you aren’t fat yet, good job and keep it up. Being fat is no good. There are too many health problems and it’s just going to give you more problems. My advice is to stay thin.
And on the contrary, don’t go starving yourself and puking yourself. That doesn’t work and it makes you sick. Eating disorders are not cool. If you are a bit overweight, exercise and eat healthy. That’s my diet. I make sure I do enough exercise to make up for the amount of food I eat. So if you want to be super thin, it’s dumb. You kill your body to look “good” and there’s such a thing as being too thin. If you’re a girl you have to know that guys like a little meat on the bones. C’mon now, having your ribs and spine showing is gross, eat some food and stop starving yourself. I know plenty of people who do that and it’s dumb and I tell them all the time not to do it.
So there’s this thing called society and culture that makes all your decisions for you if you fall into its traps. I hate it. It’s not good and it ruins people. I mean where is the creativity in this world. Stereotypes say I’m not allowed to do things based on my race, gender, and age. America is brainwashed and that’s a true fact. Just the other day in English class we had to write something about how we interpreted a book and someone said they didn’t know the answer but there wasn’t one and my teacher was just saying that everyone thinks there’s an answer that is right and wrong for everything and having the wrong answer or a different, more creative answer is bad and looked down upon. The assignment was just to see how we interpreted the traits of the main character of the story. I don’t know about you but sometimes I would expect to have a different opinion of a character than someone else. It was a book and they aren’t always clear on how the character acts right away in some books. I would hope there was more than one opinion about them. And in the real world as well I would hope that people wouldn’t all say the exact same thing about someone they didn’t know very well. It wouldn’t make sense. Society is messed up. Hollywood has too much impact on everyone as does the media. The media has done a darn good job at screwing up our world and it only gets worse as time passes. For instance, society seems to look down upon many things that are perfectly okay. One being that guys aren’t supposed to cry because it makes them look weak. I think that’s stupid but that’s how it is. Things like that don’t make a whole lot of sense to me. Stereotypes are ridiculous. There is no reason anyone should agree with them. It causes people to be brainwashed and we live in a very brainwashed society. There are rules for everything and people feel like they have to follow them. From the way you talk, to the way you act, there are rules for everything and it is so crazy. If you let the world make choices for you, you are giving up your right to make your own choices and you have no ability to make your own decisions. What good is that? It’s letting everyone use you. Why would anyone want that? I hate seeing kids do something stupid just because their friends tell them too. If you do that, you surely don’t have a good reason. Our culture also tells girls to be really thin and to dress really “sexy” with short shorts and low cut shirts. I was talking to someone about that because I think that South Portland High School has some very messed up kids. A lot of local girls are stupid. It seems like they’re all on drugs. Most of them seem to smoke or do drugs, a lot of their parents are on drugs and they’re all snobby and they are so angry all the time. By that I mean they have so many attitude issues. They’re so mean and nasty and some are just so ridiculous when it comes to problems they have. They overreact to everything and it’s so pathetic. That’s probably why I don’t have a girlfriend because I don’t see any other girls really. I only really see the ones I don’t really like.
That pretty much sums up my opinion of how people give in to stupid activities and how a lot of girls are really bad to be around. Of course, that’s just my opinion and I know that some guys like girls that smoke weed but I can tell you that those are the crack whores who turn into trailer trash who end up living in flea bag motels and they never get a job that will pay them more then they could make on the corner. That’s right, I think they are cheap sluts.
Then there’s the war…talking about weapons of mass destruction. Where in the world did they magically disappear? Oh wait, there never were any. Thank you Mr. Bush, you have successfully caused the deaths of over 3,000 people. Not to mention the 23,000 that came home wounded, some critically. Oh, and then there’s the 30% rate of serious mental issues from being over there. I’m gunna guess PTSD for the majority. There wasn’t much of a real reason to go to war. Well there was but it was never mentioned until a long ways into the war. We have wasted so much money on this war and it wasn’t really worth it. Yes, we successfully captured and later killed Saddam and gave the Iraqis freedom but there are still thousands that would rather live in a country full of war and terror. I think they will always be there and there’s nothing we can do. Bush wants to pull out but just decided to send 20,000 more troops over to fight. That doesn’t make too much sense. If you want to pull out of the war, you might start by taking 20,000 troops and bringing them home, not sending them in to fight. Whatever, Bush is almost done and hopefully someone smart and more importantly wise comes into the White House. We could really use some good redirection.
I wrote all this in late 2006, it was written in only a few hours so some of it might not be clear and the grammer might be bad in places. This is only some of what I have for thoughts on life and death, and all that stuff. I will soon post more about other things so stay tuned. Blog comments are always nice to have too. Thanks.
